Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep…

Do you have Nightmares?  Do things go bump in your night?  What about Night Terrors?  Do you wake up in a panic?  I do.  Almost every night involves some sort of vivid, anxiety provoking dreams.  Some are scary. Others are so terrifying that they possess my whole mind and body. I had so many Nightmares […]

Sleepless Nights

Accidental they said. Gone long before the sun rose its rays onto the bone chilling morning. Weeks before. Throwing the gallons of glass to the trash man. Jim was always his favorite. Watching the smoke rise from the cigarettes. Dump the remains from the sleepless night before. Only to find it full again.  Had it […]

Sleepless Nights

Accidental they said. Gone long before the sun rose its rays onto the bone chilling morning. Weeks before. Throwing the gallons of glass to the trash man. Jim was always his favorite. Watching the smoke rise from the cigarettes. Dump the remains from the sleepless night before. Only to find it full again.  Had it […]

Sinking…sinking…

I have come to the realization that I am indeed sinking again. I tried my hardest to ignore the self harm thoughts knock  knocking in my brain.  Telling myself to just keep moving forward; ignoring the intrusive thoughts. But a few well placed words from my parents this past week and I feel that downward […]

“Frankly dear, I don’t give a damn.” and other things depression says…

She was sweet and innocent.  Came in after school; excited for the 3 day weekend.  Told me how she had talked to the boy who is taking her to homecoming and a different boy called her pretty today. Today was a good day.  Lower levels of self doubt and self consciousness in my child make […]